I can’t even sleep now… I’m so riled up about this bullshit.

SO

Let me just tell you about Colby.

He’s a complete sweetheart that would do anything for me.

He also cooks for me constantly.. Something different every time.. I’ll help him when he cooks it’s really cute.

Saturday I woke up and my contacts were not in my eyes..I freaked out because that was my last pair. He immediately got up and drove me from where he lives (MLK and charleston) to the eye doctor on (Ft apache and Sahara) and I got new contacts. Then we went back to his house.

I spent from friday night until this morning with him.. He sleeps over and drives me to work in the morning a lot..

Sunday night we came back to my place and I had sex in my shower for the first time… He hits my G spots every time… He makes me scream and orgasm over and over.. He tells me he likes when I shake and convulse. He bites my neck and whispers dirty things in my ear… Constantly. It drives me insane and he knows it. Whenever Colby touches my ass he instantly gets horny.. He loves playing with it.An hour after our sex in the shower I make him horny again.. And I get on top.. He LOVES when I’m on top. I grind on him with it deep inside me…

I love the way Colby smells. He smells so fucking good. All the time. It makes me horny when I smell him..

Last night Colby sat with me and helped me draw.. He’s very critical and tells me what looks unproportional or gives me ideas.. I’ve never had anyone do this for me before.. It’s amazing.. Today he watched me from sharing my screen on skype as I colored and told me what to fix as well…

I basically wrote this to piss you the fuck off. Because you have pissed me the fuck off. GOOD DAY SIR. BTW I USED YOUR VONS CARD THE OTHER DAY. THEY SAID THANKS MRS LITCHFIELD. AND I JUST SMILED.

How dare you make a blog to talk shit about me…. Fuck you. Im glad youve gone back to Kelsey… HM WHEN I ASKED IF YOU WERE YOU SAID NO. Such a lying piece of SHIT. YOURE SUCH A FUCK. DONT FUCKING MAKE BLOGS TO TALK SHIT ABOUT ME. I CAN GO DO WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT. Also.. It seems to me.. You also cannot be alone… Now can you darling? Its funny that you give me shit for trying to do more than one relationship… yet. YOU DO IT ALL. THE. FUCKING. TIME. So suck those words right back in through your lips and swallow them whole. Don’t fucking talk shit about me. Don’t fucking talk about me. You keep making me more and more angry and you’re not even talking to me. Don’t make fucking videos that make people say “oh if she doesnt realize how good you are then screw her.” THEY DONT FUCKING KNOW THE SITUATION. FUCK YOU. STOP. JUST STOP. YOU FUCKED UP. YOUUUUUUUU FUCKED UP. NOT ME. Don’t fucking talk about me anymore. Forget about me Emerson… Just forget. No I won’t be coming back to you. BVecause you won’t ever change. No you can’t change in one night. Obviously you are STILL. The same. Going back to old habits. Going back to old girlfriends. Instantly saying you love them again? Come on. Love isn’t something that you can just toss around. But go do whatever the fuck you want.. I’ll do whatever I want. Just don’t fucking talk about me. Don’t make a stupid blog about me. And go fuck yourself.

DEAR GOD I WAS IGNORANT.

LOL

HOW DISGUSTING THOSE POSTS ARE.

You know… When you realize something that you thought was real for a long long time is fake… You get an emptiness inside you…. I feel impenetrable by anything else. I feel like nothing could be any worse than that. Even though you knew that that person was doing stuff with other people and lying to your face about it… What you didnt know was that they said the same words… wrote the same sob story… Said the same sob story… Told them the secrets that you thought only you would know… its then that you realize that it was all fake… ALL OF IT. I put myself through this though.. I continued to… even though I knew it was terrible. Even though i knew that everytime a girl texted him he was fucking that girl. He was fucking so many at once and telling them the same exact same shit. I knew all of his lies… except for the one of him loving me,.. i thought maybe he did. WHY THE HELL WOULD I THINK THAT. lol. Its good that all this happened… Now he can stay away from me forever… ruin other womens lives… karma will come back in the end for him. It always does… IN FACT id like to think of this as karma for myself. DEFINITELY came back to bite me after what Ive done.. HA. funny that.. He doesnt really know what Ive done.. Id like to think of myself like him.. but not as extreme. I get bored oh so easily… Always looking for a new thrill and something different… And because of it… I break hearts,.. and play games. But I dont do it to multiple people at once.. thats a little bit TOO fucked up. I create a little world for myself… Lie to myself. Lie to them.. I get caught up in the world… Then ill snap out of it and disappear.. After a year I gave my ex closure. HA hes been going crazy over me leaving him for a year. he couldnt grasp what i had done. Why I was so cruel. he told me i was a cruel evil human being… he showed me all his emo tumblr posts just like im doing now. HM. I guess thats how I feel now… I cant grasp how someone can be more cruel than I on a 200000000248-237390740369523 higher level. NO EXAGGERATION THERE AT ALL. Anyways. Boys are dumb. 5 guys are talking to me now. NONE ARE INTERESTING. theyre so boring. and needy. ugh. annoying. Im moving to cali soon :) cant wait. Many a hot males there for me to pick at and devour. Here’s to a new life! Hopefully the world I create this time will come with benefits and success.

sex.